It's one of those days, I'm having one of those moments... Lounging in my twin size bed, my too small dorm room, in my Hello Kitty pajamas and another rerun of MTV True Life just finished. And I simply lay there; waiting for the next episode to come on... knowing I have 6 chapters to read, a paper to write, a speech to work on, notes to take, but I don't budge.



Ciara's song comes on; it lures me in. "If that boy don't love you by now. He will never ever, never ever love you" ... "But I, gotta come down to earth, I don't wanna. But I, gotta let you go, but baby I dont wanna. And I, I gotta see, that you and me, ain't meant to be. That's why I tell myself."



It's as if that song was made for me and for all those losers I know out there. Laugh if you must, but it's nothing but the truth. It's for all those who wear their hearts on their sleeves; who let's that person take them for granted more than once. It's for the wishful thinkers; the ones who go above and beyond in hopes that one day things will change for the better. It's for the weak hearted; those of you who know you should go, leave, move on... but that person is always holding you back. Proclaiming their need for you... And the stories and analalogies go on and on.



I don't regret anything I did with you. I don't regret the memories we made, the laughter we shared, and the moments we had that no one understood, but ourselves. I don't regret wearing my heart on my sleeves when it came to you; for giving you what I could until I couldn't anymore. I don't regret a moment with you at all.



You've showed me a part of your world that I don't think I would have seen, wished to see, had the courage to see, or wanted to see without you. You taught me that sometimes, loving someone is not enough; that love is never enough... in the end you lose because you need more than that.



You don't think you could ever be in love with me. Sure you can learn to love me, but being in love with me is a different story. And I've come to conclusion with what you've said to me...I derserve someone to be in love with me; with my laughter, my clumsiness, my patience, my silliness, my love and everything in between.



So I have decided to succumb all my strength and move on. To forget about you...



Tiill then.